Diary of Ophelia

(Part 1)

Ophelia, a girl who is in a adventure of finding herself. She is a beautiful girl.Ophelia  is a kind of girl who hides her emotions because of the fear that people might call her an attention seeker. But she knows that if she tries to explain her emotions people wont understand and she knows that no one would actually care about her emotions. But she is filled with emotions and thoughts and they suffocates her everyday. She wishes if she could stop them but she is helpless. 

Ophelia is in madly love with the ocean, though she doesn't know how to swim but aren't we all afraid of the things we love? The things we love can kill us in the most hurtful way possible because we love them. 

The more she knows about the world and the more she wishes she didn't. She tries to find happiness and she does find them, but... only for temporary. The happiness just slips away from her hand like a slimy little jelly fish. She tries to hold it but it slips away. She gets it back though but again it goes away.

(The name Ophelia is a Greek baby name. In Greek the meaning of the name Ophelia is: Help. Serpentine. In Shakespeare's 'Hamlet', Ophelia was the lover of Hamlet who went insane as a result of his irrational behavior.)

The Souls of Abandoned Places

Abandoned; having been deserted or left. The fact that they are left makes them strangely interesting and beautiful. Why are these old, abandoned, rusted places beautiful?

Not everyone finds them beautiful. Some finds them to be creepy, scary, ugly and tends to keep themselves away from these places. Yes, they do give me the fright but more than the creep me, they fascinates me.

Abandoned factory halls, hospitals,school,buildings, abandoned cities and towns left behind... the peace that radiates from such places makes it so welcoming for some.

The sight of an old,abandoned car in the woods rusted, damaged with plants growing out of every corner of it could fill you with a sense of sadness and loneliness. The thought that this particular car used to be driven around to different places by its owner daces ago and now its left behind abandoned and its owner dead and gone rotten in the soil. 

                                     

Once upon a time, people walked through these places, touched them and felt them with their skin and now these are just mere memories. Every bit of these beautiful ancient abandoned places were filled with laughter and joy or screams and cries and now its a place filled with lost souls wondering around desperate to be touched or to touch the things that are left untouched for decades. It gives me shivers to think about them.

 The decay of these human made objects and the reclaim by the nature can cause a sense of solitude and makes you rethink about life around us. The way nature takes back what belongs to them and how temporary we are to them.

Of course, new things are lovely, but are not filled with souls as old, rusted objects. New objects doesn't have stories within but with time they fill themselves with stories. 

Imagine walking through the woods and finding an old building isolated from the rest of the world. As you go in, you can see the paint is chipping off the walls. All the windows are partially broken and plants are reaching out through every empty holes with wicked and skeleton like branches.

Such a sight in the middle of nowhere with no other visible human civilization around is going to fill you with questions and spark your imagination.

What kind of people were here? what were their individual stories? why was this abandoned and left to decay? Why was it build here? Where are the people now? Can they see me?

There is something eerily beautiful about abandoned places and lost traces of humanity. Though they gives the creeps but I am absolutely fascinated by them.

On Being Average

Being an average is sucks!
Myself is an average student and I hate being average. Not that I am a competitive person but the fact that people judge me because of my grades is terrible. Now the problem with average kids is that, when average kids ace an exam people assumes it was because of cheating.

Story time!

In one of my biology test, I got 9.5 out of 10 and I was happy with it of course. Now I have this girl in class who aces all her exams and tests, literally ALL! Lets call her "Kingfisher". 

Now Kingfisher comes to me and the following conversation happens

Kingfisher: Hey, heard that you got 9.5.

Me: oh  yeah, I did. 

Kingfisher: Probably cheated right?! 

Me: what no! * In my mind* HOW DARE YOU LITTLE TWAT!

So yeah, that's one of the problem. The second what I noticed is that when you get good marks, it lasts for two or three days but when you get a bad grade, that's it! People seal you with the label " A bad student who fails all her/his tests".

why do they always have to focus on the bad grades and make the person feel like a loser when evo the person clearly knows that he or she aint a loser!

Just because someone  has bad grades doesn't mean  they are loser. And school needs to stop being such judgement pricks! 

Being an average; you are neither a loser nor a winner. I think if one is a loser. must master in being a loser and if a winner must master it too. But an average is unnoticeable. 

Harry Potter

Muggles wont be able to understand them feels <3

  

Since the very beginning, Harry Potter has always being a very big part of my life. And it will always be.
 Harry Potter has always been with me in hard times. It has helped me power through my mental breakdown. Every character of Harry Potter is a part of my family. They live within me.There were times when I felt lonely and needed some company, I either read Harry potter or watched the movie.
Harry Potter taught me to appreciate life.
 During any dark times of my life, one quote which makes me glow is that "happiness can be found even in the darkest time, if only one remembers to turn on the light".







Without Harry potter believe me I wouldn't have grown to love books.
The female characters of Harry Potter made me a strong proud female. Hermione Granger is my role model. Smart, clever, stands up for what she believes in, confident, beautiful, I always look up to her.
Not only Hermione, but there are many more female characters of Harry Potter who are amazing.

The bond that Harry, Hermione and Ron have is beautiful. It takes much bravery to stand up to our friendship but we need more bravery to stand up for our friends. As a child I always wanted to have a friendship like Harry and Hermione. And Im very lucky to say that I have got a friend like Harry (his name is Chris).  I really love Ron and Hermione's relationship.This is what I call true love <3


The Harry Potter series inspired and continues to inspire me to become the person I want to be. It has filled my life with joy and happiness. Every character in Harry Potter series taught me about life.  Hogwarts will always be my home.

Too nice?

I am a kind of person who is taken for granted every time for being too nice.
The problem with me is that I cant refuse people as it makes me more upset and of course they don't consider the possibilities of me saying "no" (if you too can relate, then  Hi5 mate). At times  you feel that you have to push yourself to people or else no one will even bother to tell you hi. And yup, you end up making unworthy people a priority of you life. Having a ton of friends is a BIG problem as you wont be able to find your real true friend. These "too nice" people are often treated as options. And yes of course, our existence is acknowledged only when people needs help because we are always available.  Not to forget that we often blame ourselves when things go wrong because we are "too nice" to blame others.

 But sometimes you gotta be tough.You gotta tell people your worth. You gotta tell people that you will care only if they care about you. Sometime they will have to agree with you, instead you agreeing to them. Remember that you don't always have to be too nice. Being nice is enough but don't let people take you for granted always. You don't have to live up to people's expectations always.

The beginning

Hey there,
There are times when you feel very lonely even though when you have a lot of friends.
You want to  let go of your feelings but there is no one who you are comfortable to share with. You can start writing a diary but you want someone like a stranger to read what you write and maybe she/he can relate to you too.
And maybe this the reason why I decided to start blogging. I want to write.