When Charlie left

Diary of Ophelia

Part 3 

So, Ophelia is a little sad today... not upset but a little sad.

Charlie is in airport right now. He is going to his place for vacation and will return on 19th August. I surely will miss him. Now that he is gone, I wont have anyone  to talk to for a while. Yeah, I know I have other friends too but its the not the same.I have different kinds of friends and I have communicated with them differently matching up the personalities (If that makes sense). 

My relation with Charlie is unique. He is all the personalities in one and I am a whole me when I am with him.

So I decided, to stay away from away from the social media till he returns. It will be like a break. For a while, I want to talk to myself and spend more time with Ophelia.. 

Too much of everything is harmful, too much of social media is definitely harmful. I want to be independent of it. So, till 19th, its only Ophelia time (unless Charlie messages me).

I will surely miss Charlie but him being gone for some days will teach me his value and his worth in my life. 

Sometimes, we human beings forget the value of an individual in our life. We at times the difference a person has in our life. So in times like this, we gotta remind ourselves! 

Till 19th August, I want a change in me... I dont exactly know what, but I want a good change. I want to disappear, disappear temporarily; and return back with a much improved Ophelia.

Dont worry Diary, I wont stop writing to you.

To Charlie,

If you are reading this Charlie, I will miss you a lot and I hope you learn more about life from this trip and of course have fun too. And oh! Do not forget what I told you. Come back safe and sound so that you and Ophelia can take over the world in your own world... till then au revoir! 

The time when Ophelia is bombarded with thoughts.

Part 2

Hello Diary,

I am bombarded with thoughts right now. I dont even know how and with what to begin with.

How would it be to fall in love with your best friend since 9th grade? And how would it be to actually write a book based on it?  I have some of the most imperfectly perfect friends in  my life and I am so thankful for them and writing a book about it all would be imperfectly perfect too.

I want to. I want to write down all the moments of my life so that one day when i put them together, it will make a beautiful story  I want to do so much but I feel so little so do all that.

Anyway, Did you ever felt this thing where sometimes being happy for a quite a long time feels wrong, so you force yourself t cry. I asked one of my friend about it. The answer which he me gave me was satisfying. He told me " Its odd but its comforting." Somehow his reply gave me the answer for my question to why it feels wrong to always be happy. 

Maybe being sad is comforting at times.

 A little note about this particular friend..  He thinks.. he thinks and he wonders which fascinates me. People who think are very interesting to me. 

Also, I would have told you today about that special 9th grade person but lets keep that for some other day. A part of me wants to keep him a secret from you too, diary. 

Last thing diary, I will try to write everyday from today onward.